Trying new things scare me.

I worry that it’s my fault that all my past ” friends ” turned out not to be my friends, but in fact the people that did and still tend to do, destroy me mentally and even sometimes physically. And worst of all I think I am lossing my friends that I have had for over a year! That’s the longest friendship yet. I worry its my fault.

That I will never be “normal”

Going to school with pimples on my face

That I’ll always feel like this

Being bullied in high school because I’m gay

I worry about worrying too much

My dad’s only nice to me when he wants something and I’m worried that’s how it’s always going to be.

I worry that my anxiety will get even worse and cause me to fail in the real world like not being able to get a job or get married due to my awkwardness and lack of communication skills.

I feel like noone ever says nice things to me.

It’s getting worse and half the time I don’t even want to go out with friends anymore I’d rather just be alone

I can’t do english I will fail the test and get the same answer you need to write more people think I am smart or stupid and I am but I have a hard time writing in pencils

I’m worried that I’m going to commit suicide because I hate myself and my friends hate me too.

I’ve been cutting for over 4 years, I keep trying and trying to stop but I just simply can’t. I let my best friend down so many times, I feel like a failure…

My boyfriend broke up with me today. And it sucks. I’ve been 6 months free from cutting but those urges are there. But I’m so unsure of anything and everything. I’m worried about myself.

I’m worried that I’ll never feel happy again

I really like someone but they hate me if I would tell my friends they would make fun of me

That I’m not perfect enough for him & he’s gonna leave me for someone else .. :'(

I’m worried I won’t get into university. Everybody thinks I’m a genius, But I find school so hard

I worry that my dark thoughts will eventually become a reality. I experienced a very traumatic childhood. I was sexually assaulted by a 33 year old when I was only 12 years old, he had done that 4 times in the one night. I live with a deep regret that I never done the right thing, I feel that I should have stopped it from happening the first time. I was scared and felt so alone. I never quite understood what was going on completely as I was 12 at the time. I endured such a long court process. It took 3 years for it to actually proceed. It was a hard thing to agree to, I had to get up in court and tell people I barely know my story, my secret. After I told my story it just became harder, the defends attorney made me feel like an idiot, she twisted my words and made me feel weak. I had the same VSC for 3 years and then she left, she couldn’t take on my case anymore. I feel like whenever I trust someone they walk away. My father was very upset when I told him what happened. He was mad that I didn’t tell him right away, he took it very hard as it was his best friend who done it. I needed him the most after it happened but he experienced depression leaving me to figure out my problems by myself. I never had a mother figure in my life and I was dependent on my dad. He wasn’t there. Nobody was. Nobody understands. He don’t know how it feels to constantly feel alone, empty, and worthless. I need someone. My dreams are getting bad, I have seen me kill myself in over 10 ways through my dreams. I feel like nobody hears me. Like I’m invisible. Like I can’t escape the dangers of my mind. I need to be heard.