I’m scared I’m gonna relaspe. I’m almost a year clean of self harm but I’ve been getting thoughts of cutting again. I haven’t done it but I’m scared I will. Sometimes I just get the feeling and my arms feel weird like they want me to cut them..
I promise you can do this, it’s gonna work out in the end. Healing isn’t a straight line it has bumps, curves, intersections, and more. Even if you have a bad day that doesn’t mean your healing is failing. It’s part of the process, trust it please. I’m proud of you<3
i keep getting assessed for disorders and the results keep coming back negative or inconclusive. i never in fit or belong anywhere. i dont even know if my symptoms are real or they’re just some weird placebo. every authority figure in my life denies me being strange or odd. they act shocked when i tell them im being bullied as if i hadnt told them for the nth time. i don’t even feel like i can trust doctors most of the time. everyone always seems so insistent that im perfectly fine when i know im not. even when someone thinks somethings off, they immediately dismiss it because im the only one who sees whats wrong because im so isolated and my parents are in heavy denial of my issues. i want someone to hold my hand and help me through this or even to just tell me whats wrong with me but even the kindest of people ignore my reality. im tired. i dont know how much longer i can keep doing this.
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I like to read or listen to music.
Music has helped me through everything. Some songs i could listen to on repeat and they would still make me cry everytime and others make me want to laugh and sing. Most songs remind me of something and thats why i feel the way i do about them.
These are some of my favorite songs
– The night we met- makes me cry everytime ;(
– Cruel summer
– Star shopping
I always feel like i want to cry i feel like i’m not good enough and i’m afraid of what people think of me. I never tell my mom anything so i just listen to music and cry in my room all alone. I’m scared people think i’m stupid and pathetic.
I think i have an eating disorder i have always loved food but i hate myself and i think i’m fat i’ve been trying to cut out food but i cant. I hate my thighs and my arms but people say i’m not fat but i don’t belive them and i just HATE myself. I cry about it to but when i eat i get guilty and i have been counting calories and i don’t know what to do. My mom tells me all the time how happy she is that i’m a healthy weight but i just dont feel it.
I’m worried and scared about everything. To be honest im just not as happy anymore. I’m so busy with my extra curiculars and school and i’m always so overwhelmed and being overwhelmed leads to anxiety which leads to self harm. I have only self harmed twice and they were both time that i was just crying in my room and needed to do something. I feel like my parents don’t understand what i’m going through but tbh i’m to scared to tell them so i keep it all inside. I feel like i’m a terrible friend recently and i feel like i’m losing them but i cant help it. I don’t know how to tell my mom i want to go back to therepy because we decided it wasn’t helping me but i really want to go back to it. I also feel like i’m disipointing my mom and family but i just cant help my emotions in a heathy way and that’s one of the reasons i want to go back to therepy. I also have to keep up with school i have big dreams when it comes to school but i’m also scared its not going to happen or i’m going to fall down the rabbit hole into drugs and alcohol like my dad, i really need help i have no idea what to do i feel like i cant talk to anyone.
I love this book, and other poem books like it
Taylor Swift is the answer to all my problems
I can recite every word to All Too Well (10 Minute Version) (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) By Taylor Swift, word for word. It’s my favourite. It’s 10 minutes long and it’s a great song, I recommend it, give it a listen sometime!
I love her sm, she helps everything❤️🩹
I posted in the worry jar section in early March and it is now late September. It may be hard to believe but it truly does get better. I’ve gotten the help that I needed to be able to live and cope with my personality disorders and it has helped tremendously. I found a new group of friends who accept me for who I am and they are a wonderful part of my life. I have truly grown as a person and have crawled out of that sad pit that I was in during March. I journal, I help my community by volunteering, and most importantly, I keep a positive mindset and attitude. Treating others and yourself with kindness goes a long way to your relationships and how you view yourself. I understand that sometimes it is extremely hard to be positive, and no you can’t be happy all the time. What you can always have is hope. A hope for a better day, a better tomorrow, and a better future. Hope goes hand in hand with helping to create a better outlook on life. You will have your bad days, I still do, but hope will always be there to lend a helping hand, one to drag you out of your pit.
In school I listen to music since I don’t feel like I’m included in things and nobody seems to like things I do I feel like an outsider but when I listen to music I feel like I’m in a new world this is a song I recommend is anything by evanescence
Hi you! Everyone believes in you 🙂
Back in the fall I was in a really dark place, I wouldn’t eat for days and when I did eat It would only be tiny portions of food. This wasn’t the first time I went through this, early 2022 I had the same problem. I was too afraid to tell anybody because I thought that people would think that I was just asking for attention. Luckily things got better after a while and I somewhat “recovered”. But lately I have started to feel as if I’m going to relapse, so as a way to try and stop myself from relapsing I have been eating too much. But as I’ve been eating so much the way I see my body is making me want to relapse more. I don’t want to tell anyone because they are going to think I’m being dramatic and asking for attention. And I don’t call it an eating disorder because no one will believe me and will make it worse. I feel so bad.
i dont rlly have much pics of drawings rn, but does any artists want to be friends? my snap is thatonekid2570
where do i even start? i feel so mentally drained. ive been very snappy at my family and i really dont want to be, but i cant control it. ive been always around my friends and one of them is toxic and wanted me to do bad things with them, and i didnt want to say no because i didnt want to lose her. i broke down and told my parents about it all. i feel better now that i did but i really dont wantto lose my closest friends.. im trying my best to keep myself up but its so hard.