my friends won’t understand my mental illness

I am not accepted by my peers

That me and my girlfriend will keep falling apart and becoming more distant all because my parents can’t stand our relationship. She makes me happy. But she’s so busy and they purposely try to separate us. I miss spending time with her. I miss talking to her. She was the only person I could talk too and now I feel so alone.

My boyfriend will find someone better than me

This too shall pass!

Everything just makes me more upset

I worry that everything I do is wrong and when I do something right nobody realizes it

I’m just scared I will have a panic attack anywhere for no reason

Wonce i graduat i will forever be alone

My best friend has this girl that has his eye on. I told him to go after her and he did and I think she likes him too but lately he’s been really distant with me and I know I shouldn’t be jealous but I can’t lose him. He’s one of the only bit of happiness I have in life and he barely even talks to me anymore. I have no point in living if we stop being friends

I worry that my parents will never understand how depressed I really feel

That my depression and anxiety will get in the way of what I really want in life.

I’m worried that I won’t be the person I am anymore. The past few days have been rough. I just don’t feel like myself.

I sicken myself. I’m repulsed by my appearance, and I really just want to like myself.. Even a little.

I make my boyfriend worry over the things I say and it’s really bugging me

I fear that one day, I will kill myself and harm the ones I love.

im worried about everything, i think i have anxiety, but i have anxiety about telling about my anxiety, so when people ask me why i dont want do do somthing, i say im just shy instead of telling them about my social anxiety. but i am not depressed. I’ve only had about 3 panic attacks in the past 2 years it does not controll my life, i just dont want be mom to think its really bad and worry about me self harming or even suicide, im not depressed. i just dont want people to treat me differant

I’m afraid that someone will destroy my right and make homosexuality illegal again and I’m afraid because then I can’t be myself. I can’t force myself to be straight.

I want the…gold chainz and diamond ringz, but I just can’t live my life like this

I worry that because of the pain people have put me through in the past that I’ll end up being the cause of someone’s suicide. I had someone tell me that they’d kill themselves if I didn’t sent him an explicit video, when I said no, he sent me a video of him attempting to OD. So I had to. People say that if someone blames you for being suicidal then they are only playing a game, I want to believe that but, others have blamed their suicidal thoughts on me and I feel like a monster. I find myself being mean to people without thinking, without trying, I can’t control it. I’ve become a shell of the person I used to be. The guilt is tearing me apart. Today I checked the obituaries to see if an aquaintance killed himself because he miss understood something I had said. I feel like if I could cause pain on purpose then I’d be able to stop myself. But that’s stupid. Today my friend didn’t answer my texts, I thought it was because she was mad at me for saying things to my acquaintance, who is her best friend. So, I skipped out and went home early to cut myself. I’ve only started recently, someone told me it was great so I had to try it. I don’t regret it. I might regret the scars. I’ve started carving my insecurities into my thigh. Things like monster, lovely, evil, fat. … I don’t see myself stopping, even if I want to wear shorts again some day. Other then that I see no point in stopping.