I’m worried that I won’t be able to stay clean of self-harm because when my life goes to crap and my mental health takes a major drop I always end up going back to it. I don’t know if i’ll even make it to 15 without another suicide attempt. My family thinks that since they made me stop self-harming i’m perfectly fine. I hate that i’m demiromantic because I see all these other people happy in relationships when I can’t even get a crush on anyone. Being trans in a transphobic family doesn’t help my hatred for myself either. I don’t like the people I share a body with either. In 2023 I’ll finally have a body the first one didn’t touch and in 2028 I’ll have a body the second one didn’t touch.