“She should just kill herself”
Yeah. She thinks that too.
She thinks that on those late nights where she can just scream into her pillow blaming herself.
Blaming herself for something she never could’ve changed.
Screaming over and over,
All she can feel is the way she felt when her mother first told her.
But now it’s not a 7 year old feeling this way.
7 whole years later,
She still screams.
She still wishes it’s all a sick joke and he’s waiting on a porch somewhere.
She thinks that when she realizes she can’t remember what he smells like.
Nobody could believe the times that “it should’ve been me instead” have run through her head.
No matter how many times anyone says shes “such a sweet caring little girl”,
It will never be true to her.
Truth be told,
That sweet little girl died the day he did.
At least that’s how she feels,
As the days go by she believes it more and more.
She’s losing the motivation to do anything.
Its becoming harder and harder to be nice to the people she loves,
She hates hurting them like this but she can’t control anything.
Her life is rolling down hill so fast.
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I hope i can get better
Read, draw, watch a movie, a lot of stuff helps but if you would like to relax using one of the three things is typed in this text would be watching a movie because if you choose a very realxing movie that’s happy and joyful but just enough to help you relax then you also get to enjoy watching something and then after you’re relaxed try and talk to someone because if you don’t talk to someone, the choice of keeping it all inside will affect you and your mental health because it will make you feel bad, stressed, overwhelmed, and tired. From personal expiercience with that stuff it isn’t easy to talk about it, but it’s easy to talk to a stuffy if you have one, or any toy you might have.
I hope you all have a great day/evening/night/afternoon and remember you are loved and you are cared about. Stay safe and be you.
i hope wakatakakage WINS the november basho
I hope that my mental health gets better.
EMO?
My worry is that im going to be eaten by my mother.
My hope is to know how to spell
I’m scared the fog, the fog its coming, its coming for all of us, you can’t see it but its always there, the fog consumes us, the fog is inside you, it is consuming you from the inside, rip it out, tear away the skin keeping it in, THE FOG NEEDS OUT!! GET IT OUT…… NOW.
AMONGUS
I’m worried that I won’t be able to stay clean of self-harm because when my life goes to crap and my mental health takes a major drop I always end up going back to it. I don’t know if i’ll even make it to 15 without another suicide attempt. My family thinks that since they made me stop self-harming i’m perfectly fine. I hate that i’m demiromantic because I see all these other people happy in relationships when I can’t even get a crush on anyone. Being trans in a transphobic family doesn’t help my hatred for myself either. I don’t like the people I share a body with either. In 2023 I’ll finally have a body the first one didn’t touch and in 2028 I’ll have a body the second one didn’t touch.
Music has always been my coping mechanism in regards to my emotions, i feel as a high school student that us teenagers voices need to be heard, even more so emotion. Sometimes talking to someone that will listen just isn’t enough. You know, my favorite singer/song writer;artist luke combs, uses his emotion in every single song. most songs do, however it’s easy to decipher his from everyone elses. luke never picked up a guitar tell he was 23, and ever sense than he as spoken that his life is 200% better. The point is, us teenagers need to find what we can express ourselves with . this honestly goes for every person, if you have no way to blow off steam it’ll blow up in ways that nobody wants to witness . its like a water balloon, the water is our emotions and the balloon is our heads, one of these days you’ll not realize how much water you have in it tell its to late. Finding what you enjoy is the most important part of life. even if its homework, cleaning, music like me. I do encourage and hope that peoples eyes can remain open for something they might enjoy. – Tyson
Go exercise! Whether that’s going for a jog/walk around the neighbourhood, playing soccer with your friends at lunch, or something entirely different. Sounds cliché, but it helps.
I recommend reading Dear Evan Hansen.
im worried about my mental health is it normal to have so many issues when u cant think of anything that happened to u ……. i cant remember my child hood at all is my mind blocking something from me?
i hope i can feel emotoins besides idgaf and idk what it is its hard to explain
im pushing people away lol ……..cant focus anymore not bc of everyone or anything i just cant im about to fail my classes i go no assignments done and i feel like nobody knows me or likes me …. does this thing even work lol
I am worried that I do not finish reading my tuck ever lasting book as quickly as everyone else.