I feel like ill never get friends everyday i feel left out To things in school

I want to tell my mom about my mental health issues but I’m too scared of what would happen next.

I’m afraid of judgement of others , i’m going to therapy but i’m still afraid no one will believe that i have anxiety.

I’m worried that no one will believe how much I’m hurting and brush it off as attention seeking or lies

That my “friends” talk about me when I am not there.

That my best friend has read my texts and knows I have talked about her.

I try to act funny and cool I guess around my crush but turns out I just look and sound plain stupid…

I’m worried about everything and everyone except myself

That I will never have a boyfriend

I worry that I’ll never be good enough for someone, if I’m told that now, will it always be like that?

I worry I will get sick on a school trip

My dad’s only nice to me when he wants something and I’m worried that’s how it’s always going to be.

I worry that my anxiety will get even worse and cause me to fail in the real world like not being able to get a job or get married due to my awkwardness and lack of communication skills.

I’m worried I’ll be alone all my life

I feel like everything is slowly falling apart and there is nothing I can do

I worry that my anxiety is going to be the thing that makes my boyfriend leave me.

My pop died today

Everyone says my boyfriend deserves better than me, I know it isn’t true but everyone saying it is really making it seem true

Im scared of pushing my best friend away. Ive started picking out her flaws. I cant help it. And i dont want to, all she does it complain.

Sometimes I honestly think that if I killed myself, everything would get better. Then I worry about how everyone else would react. Sometimes I think they wouldn’t care and other times I do. It just confuses me and I don’t know how to handle it!