i keep getting assessed for disorders and the results keep coming back negative or inconclusive. i never in fit or belong anywhere. i dont even know if my symptoms are real or they’re just some weird placebo. every authority figure in my life denies me being strange or odd. they act shocked when i tell them im being bullied as if i hadnt told them for the nth time. i don’t even feel like i can trust doctors most of the time. everyone always seems so insistent that im perfectly fine when i know im not. even when someone thinks somethings off, they immediately dismiss it because im the only one who sees whats wrong because im so isolated and my parents are in heavy denial of my issues. i want someone to hold my hand and help me through this or even to just tell me whats wrong with me but even the kindest of people ignore my reality. im tired. i dont know how much longer i can keep doing this.