I want to off myself badly, but at the same time I don’t. I’m scared to love people (Romantically), and it only gets worse when the person finds out I love them. I feel like a total “putain” (wh0re). I hate my body. I hate my stomach, I hate my thighs, face, teeth, eyes, voice, laugh, hair, hands, chest, ears … everything. I feel like a pig now whenever my parents treat me to something like KFC or whatever (And I don’t get it a lot.) I just want to starve.