i want to harm myself even though im scared of it, i want to end it but i cant face the thought of death and losing everone ive met and everything ive accomplished. im worried that if im talking to my friends and i say that im gay or that im not a girl, they will laugh at me and tell their parents about it, and they will tell my parents. what if i get kicked out of my house, where will i go? im just confused, worried and scared right now…