I’m worried that my grandparents will just give up on me. I’m not worth their time. I have told them that I was Bisexual and they didn’t appreciate that, I told them that I don’t believe in any religions and they didn’t appreciate that, I have even told them that I’m not okay with certain things that they do and I told them that I really badly need to get so many medical things checked out just to physically feel “Okay,” but nothings happened. My emotions and how I feel is just invalid to them.
I drown myself in video games, art, music, so I can feel good in a pretend reality and let my thoughts take over my mind. Good or not. And nothing will ever change. I’m trapped here. Feeling left out, in pain, suffering. I just want to be happy again. Properly happy..