It’s been only a year or two that I somehow gained conciousness. Like I’m no longer a mindless zombie going through a routine. I have thoughts and feelings and worries, and a lot of them. I don’t know what to do with them all. It seems like it’s been so long since I’ve been happy for over a week straight that it seems like it’s all I know. I don’t like change at all, so I don’t know if I want it to stop. It’s almost like it’s all I’ve ever known, how do I just be happy?