Im sad all the time, like 100% of the time. I was on antidepressants and they made my self harm worse, I didn’t take them right though. I think I just don’t want to lose the attention given to me from my issues, I’m just that horrible. I’ve tried to commit 4 times, I died once but was unfortunately revived. I hurt my mom and dad by being sad and I just want to be the independent little girl they want back. And my amazing boyfriend is addicted to a pill and it’s really hurting me and stressing me out but I need to help him and I care about him so much. I cry myself to sleep every single night wanting to cut but knowing if I do he’ll do a pill and I’ll harm him more than me. My life’s a mess and I’m ready for it to be over.